Tuesday, November 25, 2008

A hero for your life....

After a long time, I do have some time and my mood is right to write :-)
I thought to write of some general topics, but got bored of reading them a lot, some technical ones.. no waaaayyyy...

Every person sees someone and thinks why can't I be like him/her. I am going to use 'him' for a generic purpose here on, just for convince. So, I used think about some hero in a movie and think why can't I be like him. Or some epics I used to listen from my grandma; It did not make sense before but moving on in life it does make sense now. Let me explain, I did want my self to be like many people, Hero, artists, characters, players, famous people, and even politicians. Some were inspirational and some were just for the kind of power they have, and a few because I used to think I could do a better job than they did or were doing.

But one person just sticks to you and never leaves your mind. You always think about him and think what good he did and think what he could do better. Try to follow him and try to act like him and even sometimes try thinking like him. That person, in my view is the HERO of your life. He can actually do many things that many of your 'wannabe' persons do individually. He just does not show off much about them. You learn him in and out and try to focus on things he could not learn himself and you try to learn. It is a fierce competition to outcast HIM your HERO, to overtake him in always. It is a constant fight. You sometimes feel that You lost the race because he is a HERO and you are just a man. But you never give up, you keep fighting. You try to see him at least once everyday and try taking to him (his picture, or himself).

But you know you have your ego, that always prevents you to do what he would have done in a particular situation. You think 'what would he do?', but you would try something different, thinking that it yields better results. Sometimes you win, and sometimes you don't, but the most weird and awkward thing is that you never see HIM, 'your hero' ,win over you. Even if he wins he wont celebrate, because YOU celebrate when he wins.

Did you ever think why, not because he is your Hero, but because of YOU..You are YOUR Hero...
I believe it. Yes we are our hero, A hero for our life...

A hero who can change you is inside you. My friend rightly said "The mighty rules!! Why not become one and change rules?" The insider is there somewhere wanting to change, to help you become mighty. I wish I can change and win over my hero, wining over myself is the biggest challenge I face.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

This is one of the numbers by Aerosmith: Dream ON....
One of my favorite songs...

Everytime that I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face gettin clearer
The past is gone
It went by like dust to dawn
Isnt that the way
Everybodys got their dues in life to pay

I know what nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know its everybodys sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life is in books written pages
Live and learn from fools and from sages
You know its true
All the things come back to you

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away

Dream on, dream on
Dream yourself a dream come true
Dream on, dream on
Dream until your dream come true
Dream on, dream on, dream on...

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away

Monday, September 8, 2008

Self esteem...what is it??

One book I was reading says that "Self esteem is what you feel good about yourself" well it may be right but I think its more than that. Its not just about 'feel good' factor. Its about whats right and still feeling good about it. Most of us feel good about ourselves in truimph times.. but seeing the light in the darkness and feeling good about such success is at a different level. So, what is self esteem?
Self respect and self esteem does have similar meaning, but I still need to find the difference. However I think there is a minor difference I have experienced. High self respect sometimes is perceived as 'Ego' or 'Showing Attitude' by others. But Self-esteem is never perceived that way. I might be wrong here, but I think there is a point.
Another book describes that High Selfesteem leads to positive attitude, Success, etc etc. It also makes you able to take criticism the right way and also give criticism tactfully. Sometimes talking out and some times being quite delivers the message.
How does one unleash their self esteem? Making a mark for themselves is the main point. where do you stop, where not to, and where is the limit, can you cross it?? All these questions bind no rules. It is upto each individual to decide that.
Self-esteem is self concpet too. Knowing about your self before you start to feel good. 
A farmer growing watermelons, wantedly puts a small wooden box around one of the melons. What happens? At harvest, every melon grows to its extent, except for this one which comes out to be a small cube shaped melon. Just like that wooden Box, Self-concept is the boundary you put yourself in. A shape in which you think is good for you, but you never know.
Some other attributes of people with self esteem are the ability to take risks, sensitve to others needs, being able to take before giving back criticism, constructive behavior, good relations with every one, etc etc. I know its boring you, but I wanted to write it. I dont know about my own self esteem yet.. but as told before no rules should bind you to explore your self. Follow your heart, Read your mind, listen to the tone and see with in. Enjoy..

Thursday, June 26, 2008

The train of cans...

Have you ever played with empty cans.. I did..made a train and dragged it around for a long time..
I did not knew what my Mom meant when she asked me to stop doing such acts..I thought she was irritated by the rankling sound of empty cans hitting each other and the all that noise.. now I understand what she meant..or may be understood a deeper meaning in her words..
you make it with your own hands..you want your train to look as good as possible..so you clean the cans.. mend all bends and dents..shine every can if possible. You will love it.. when you start putting them together you see how cool they look..then you will love to play with it..get the engine end which you assume to be the best end and start pulling around you.

You will play all the way.. in the hall, living room, bed room, kitchen, playground outside..even in neighbors house.. you are living in the best of you times.. you like all that noise that those cans make behind you and you laugh when others get irritated about those cans and sound.. you don't care about any thing...you feel you are the king of the world.. and no one can stop you.. but....seldom you know that you will get tired very soon.. you will be hungry.. but still you don't want to leave them..so you finally tie it around your waist and you feel good that they are always behind you..

After a while you will start feeling tired and hungry.. and finally you will go to your mom..she tries to take the train off your waist..you don't want her to take it off.. you wont let her take it off.. you dad would try his turn..but no one can take it off you... at the end of the day.. you want to sleep you feel tired and you don't know whats going on..because you hear this noise when ever you try to take a step.. the same noise that you loved will sound irritating now.. you now want to hear your mom singing you a lullaby to sleep..your mom is all there and you want to move to her .. reach her arms.. you take one step and you stop because the cans are noisy and disturbing the pleasantness and calmness.. you try again.. it repeats.. it goes on.. then finally your mom comes to you.. she says "My lil angel.. take this train off your waist..the cans..they wont go any where.. trust me and sleep like a good baby.. tomorrow morning you can play with it again..I will keep them safe and hide them from everyone else.." that is when you see the kindness and love in your moms eyes and let go the train of cans.. go to your mom and sleep like a baby hearing to the lullaby..

to me now.. the train of cans can be seen as a your respective past.. and all the cans are the prominant things that happened to you in your life..your friends..achievements and failures, relatives, relations, influensive people and everything.. when the time comes to move forward i believe you need to leave those cans with your train..start searching for a new can.. finally it does not matter.. you look into the future and no where else...
In the words of Steve Jobs my inspiration "because its so hard if you dont have passion..if you dont love what you do..any rational person would give up..and they quit"

To all my friends: I love you all...you filled my past and I will always have beautiful memories.. down the line.. I am sorry if I had hurt you in any way..you all rock..

To my Family: I love you mom, dad, sis and granma.. you have been there with me to support me in every step and I will do my best not to let you down..